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Saturday, February 28, 2015 11:51 pm
Thoughts listen, ♥
The problem about being part of a family, is that we expect too much from each other, even if it seems as though we don't give a flying XXXX about anything.
I wish I could bear all the responsibilities and pain that everyone is going through. But this is life, and I am only human, there is only so much I can do to help and to resolve the animosity/awkwardness/tension.
This isn't easy at all, being the asshole that is inflicting pain on one side, and yet having to be the one answering to the other.
I'm so tired of the endless drama in my life.
School is driving me insane. I've never felt this stupid, even under Curtis, but this is really mind blowing and I feel like stabbing myself everyday for taking this idiotic module.
What can I do to better the situation? What can I do to make things right? What can I do to make myself feel better?
Some days, I wish I was a superhero. But then again, everyday I am a superhero because I am able to absorb all the bullshit that people throw at me on a daily basis.
Expectations really kills the joy in living, and yet, we have so many people to please at the same time.
To quote myself yet again:
"As I look into my
own family life, I have to admit that it is impossible for thing to always be
rosy at home because we each have our own commitments and differences. But I
hold on to the belief that together, we can conquer.
My family has always
been my cornerstone, but they too, are pushed away when I have my assignments,
projects and examinations due. When I am stressed or upset, my family seems to
be the ones who bear the brunt of it, even when they are unaware of what has
happened because it is the easiest way to vent your frustrations and they would
not take offence, because we are a family."
I'm so tired.
So tired of everything that life throws at me.
Friday, February 27, 2015 12:50 am
Family listen, ♥
"I am still in
doubt as to what a perfect family truly means. But in any case, I am happy and
contented that I am fortunate enough to be brought up in a complete family and
despite the trials over the years, we have overcome."
I wish I was as confident as I was when I wrote this in my assignment.
Wednesday, February 25, 2015 12:31 am
Upset listen, ♥I'm trying to be more tolerant of the things that's happening around me but i seems almost impossible. I hate this feeling and I hate myself a little more today then any other days. There are days where I wish I was my own hero, days where I can turn a blind eye to everything that is happening around me. But I can't. I can't seem to be able to do that. And i hate myself for that. You know how you have a thousand and one feelings that you want to bring across but you can't. You know that feeling of being chocked up by something you thought would never happen in your life? I'm a complete mess now, and as hard as I'm trying to hang on to whatever is left, my brokeness is overwhelming me so much so that I feel like giving up. But does life always do this to me? What did I do so wrong to deserve this?
Monday, February 16, 2015 9:37 am
Tired listen, ♥
Done with a very hectic weekend.
CONGRATULATIONS THOMAS AND IRENE! :)
May your marriage be nothing short of amazing! :)
Sick and tired of people being rude to me.
Monday, February 09, 2015 11:22 pm
Categories listen, ♥
There are many categories of friends, and sometimes, I get confused on my own.
I do not live in denial, I'm pretty damn sure of that.
And as far as I know, I can tell who are my true friends are (now), and who is here to make use of me.
As far as I'm concerned, I don't have many good friends, let alone best friend. (Honestly, I just need one, and I'm happy)
I know people mistake certain people as my 'best friend', 'good friend', 'acquaintance' and such.
But in all honesty, I don't see why I need to prove that 'this' or 'that' person is my 'best friend', 'good friend' or whatever friend it is, when it's my business.
I don't understand and I don't think I ever will?
Like, I know I'm being damn petty, but I just can't help it.
(Just needed an avenue to vent.)
Whatever k.
Thursday, February 05, 2015 12:21 am
Birthday listen, ♥
Everyday, I'm thankful for the people in my life - those who stayed, and those that chose to leave.
Today, like any other day, I'm grateful for my family and my close friends that I can always count on in trying times.
As I turn another year older, and hopefully, wiser, I wish that things would get better, on many platforms.
I'm not going to ask for the unrealistic because life doesn't work that way.
I just pray, in every way, that we'll always be thankful for whatever comes.
As I embark on life, with another year added to my life span, I pray for nothing but the best, and that I will be able to find my way in time to come.
A big shout out to all who wished me on this special day. This day is ours to share. Thank you for walking with me throughout this time. I am really grateful.
As George Burns say - "You can't help getting older, but you don't have to get old."
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